It was a few years ago. I was dating someone who was a successful musician. I was really stuck creatively, and this person was not very encouraging to me and was kind of like an egomaniac. I was really struggling to find my own voice, and at one point he was just sort of like, "Well, maybe this is like not for you. Maybe you should try to do something else." At the time it just hurt so much. He was just such a toxic person, and I didn't realize it at the time, because I really loved him. That song is about how sometimes you try to do something wild ... and out of the ordinary, as like a fun, last ditch effort to resuscitate a relationship. And it turns out just being the most sad, empty feeling that makes you realize all the more that it's not meant to be. I left this person many years ago, and realized just how emotionally abusive he was to me and how much he really kept me back from pursuing my own voice. It's just really amazing to release a song like that and feel like I've had my own artistic success at this point, that's going to conquer his someday. It was just a funny moment.TV: Shahadi Wright Joseph Opens Up About a Possible "Us" Sequel, Impressing Her Parents, and Perfecting an Evil Doppelganger [As for whether they were supportive,] not like at all, no, no, no, no. My mom was just like, "I'm just waiting for you to get over this." My mom wouldn't let me take guitar lessons until I was 16, and I had wanted to for like three years. With this special coming up, people keep saying, "Oh, it's a reunion! I’m so stoked forThe Hills